Not much has been new here because I have been hanging around my apartment. I guess I have been isolating. Denny has been trying to get me to get out of the house more, but honestly I feel so much better here than being out and pretending that my thinking is alright. It is not that bad really, but it is something to be aware of before it does get any worse. I am not sure if it is my illness or just the realization of both my parents being sick and dealing with my brother.
Tomorrow I start back at the program that I went to before I left for New Jersey. I really was seriously thinking of not going back, but Denny and my therapist strongly recommended that I return for a little while. I am not happy about having to get up at six in the morning to be there by seven thirty and then having to walk back home at the hottest time of the day. I am not sure how this is going to help, but I am willing to try.
One thing about me is that when I am not feeling well, it can be seen in my apartment, and right now as I look around I can see it is starting. I will force myself to do something when I get home tomorrow, because Thursday Denny and I have to go to a screening of Tourchwood: Miracle Day. I was excited at first when I received the invite, but honestly I have lost interest. I know I just announced to everyone who reads this that I enjoy science fiction, oh well.
Currently I am concerned about my son. He is going through a small blip in the road and he is realizing that being an adult is not always fun and there is nothing that I can do to help him through this, only give him my support and allow him to learn from this, and it is the hardest thing that I have going on right now, because I know that I can do something to help him, but he will not learn that way. I know it is important for him to understand the importance of certain things in life and that if I bail him out he will never understand that. It is eating me up inside, but I know that right now, I am doing the best for him in the end. Guess I just needed to write that out so I can see again why I made the decision I did.
Well time to find a picture for today…
Ok for today I have chosen I picture I took this past winter, because with the heat building we start to thinking about how nice it would be to have some winter weather for just a day or two. This shot was taken near Utica, NY at Denny’s childhood home. His brother lives there and heats the house with wood and these timbers were lying so nicely and I really liked the way this picture came out. TTFN