Welcome to My Bumpy Ride.......

Before you all read on, I guess it is best to introduce myself to you and let you know a bit about myself. I am Susan, and first and foremost, I am a mother to a wonderful young man. Though he is grown, he will always be that three year old little boy, that asked all those questions and expected answers to them all. Though I will tell you much about myself in this blog there is no one or nothing that is as important to me as him, even if I don't discuss him much, because he kina likes to remain private.

For years I was actively trying to find myself, but that was a big waste of time, since by doing so I was not living. All my life I have always known that I was "different", but was unable to know why that was. I first thought that perhaps it was because I was adopted, but that was not the case. Turns out, I am bipolar and pretty much have been all my life. This was explained to me about nine years ago when I had a major melt down. I tend to be more on the depressive side, but have on occasion been quite manic. My last episode was early thru mid 2008, with full blown depression. For five months, I bearly left my house, let alone my bed. Why am I telling you this? I just want it out in the open and let you understand that I discuss my illness from time to time.

Present day, I am currently a full time student, studying social work. At the end of 2011 I was approached by a mentor of mine, who mentioned a new program that was going to launch here in Rhode Island. This new program called the Peer Wellness Coaching, was something that I had always wished would become a reality and to add even more excitement was the fact that this mentor was inviting me to train for a position as one of the Peer Wellness Coaches.

So currently (spring 2012) I am part of the three phases of training and should be employed by the fall of 2012. What is even more excellent about this program is that they are aware of my education goals and are willing to work with me on maintaining those goals.

Also you might hear me mention NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness), because I am actively involved with them. I am a facilitator and state trainer for the NAMI Connection groups (peer run support group) here in Rhode Island, and I also help teach high school and college students about mental illness through NAMI RI's Inside Mental Illness program.

So with all that being said...I hope you read on to my daily activities and thoughts and such.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

June 14, 2011 Thinking about School and Opening

Been a little bit since I wrote last, but figured that I would today.  Things with me are ok and I am still at the program I told you about and will be done on Friday.  I think I am getting something from it, but part of me thinks that I will not be able to really get out of it what I need to.  Whether I do or not doesn’t matter at this point because I have to end this Friday because I have to leave for Dad’s on the 22nd.  There is a slight chance that I will go back after Dad’s, but I am not sure. 

At this point I am not ready to return to school in the fall.  There is no way that I am going to go back to classes with the way I am feeling.  Last semester was a complete nightmare and I am not going to go through that again.  At least with me not having classes I don’t have that added stress, but if I added it, I would be in the same position I was in last semester.  This is not good at all.  My goal for the summer is to be in the same mind set as last fall.

This weekend I will be heading to Saratoga, NY.  Denny has a golf tournament and I will be heading down to Albany, NY to visit friends on Saturday.  Not too sure about Sunday but I do know that both Denny and I need to head home in the afternoon.  So it is going to be short but sweet.

I have been trying to keep up with my photography and well I have gotten a few good shots, but I am my worst critic.  I know that I can pass up the opportunity that has been given to me.  Thankfully the gallery allowed me to change from opening this past spring to next spring.  I was way too sick to even get somewhat organized for the opening that we originally agreed on.  I still can’t believe that they think my photography is show worthy, let alone the amount of money they believe the shots are worth, but who knows, maybe they are right.  One thing that I did get done was a slide show to add to the opening and if I can post it I will try. (Nope, it wouldn't do it)

Well that is all for today.  If I can’t post the slide show here I am sorry.  Next blog will have a picture of the day.  TTFN

1 comment:

  1. Good to know you are doing alright...excluding the school situation. Oh I have wanted to tell you for sometime that one of my top 20 books is She's Come Undone by Wally Lamb. I think of it every time I see your page's bookshelf.

    Congratulations on having a show!