Welcome to My Bumpy Ride.......

Before you all read on, I guess it is best to introduce myself to you and let you know a bit about myself. I am Susan, and first and foremost, I am a mother to a wonderful young man. Though he is grown, he will always be that three year old little boy, that asked all those questions and expected answers to them all. Though I will tell you much about myself in this blog there is no one or nothing that is as important to me as him, even if I don't discuss him much, because he kina likes to remain private.

For years I was actively trying to find myself, but that was a big waste of time, since by doing so I was not living. All my life I have always known that I was "different", but was unable to know why that was. I first thought that perhaps it was because I was adopted, but that was not the case. Turns out, I am bipolar and pretty much have been all my life. This was explained to me about nine years ago when I had a major melt down. I tend to be more on the depressive side, but have on occasion been quite manic. My last episode was early thru mid 2008, with full blown depression. For five months, I bearly left my house, let alone my bed. Why am I telling you this? I just want it out in the open and let you understand that I discuss my illness from time to time.

Present day, I am currently a full time student, studying social work. At the end of 2011 I was approached by a mentor of mine, who mentioned a new program that was going to launch here in Rhode Island. This new program called the Peer Wellness Coaching, was something that I had always wished would become a reality and to add even more excitement was the fact that this mentor was inviting me to train for a position as one of the Peer Wellness Coaches.

So currently (spring 2012) I am part of the three phases of training and should be employed by the fall of 2012. What is even more excellent about this program is that they are aware of my education goals and are willing to work with me on maintaining those goals.

Also you might hear me mention NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness), because I am actively involved with them. I am a facilitator and state trainer for the NAMI Connection groups (peer run support group) here in Rhode Island, and I also help teach high school and college students about mental illness through NAMI RI's Inside Mental Illness program.

So with all that being said...I hope you read on to my daily activities and thoughts and such.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Alphabe-Thursday – Justme

Alphabe-Thursday through Jenny Matlock’s blog.  Today’s letter is J. So here goes…

I am Justme.  It is funny really for me to choose this for my entry.  When I first started online I made all my screen names justme6790.  At the time I was quite depressed all the time and when I chose that screen name I meant just what it said.  Justme.  Like I was no different than anyone else.  Like there was no reason to care what I do anywhere in my life. 

Well here I am quite a few years later and well I am still Justme, but it is a better just me than previous.  I say I am unique and different as anyone is. So now when I think of my old screen name I think that I am Justme being who I am and I am OK!


  1. Well, that's rather a cool screen name. I use to hate when I had to come up with screen names or unique email addresses so much so I would come up with things like noneofyourbusiness or youdontneedtoknow. I was just annoyed by the whole process is all. Great 'J' post!

    Check out today's posts:
    Jumping Jehosaphat!

    Incidentally, have you ever considered doing away with the word verification? I mean,you don't need it I'v discovered especially if you monitor your comments via email. Just thought I'd throw that your way to think on.... ^.^

  2. Bravo to you ~ Wow ~ college ~ a job in Sept ~ Wonderful so glad for you ~ Just Me is Just Fine Just the way you are ~ ~ thanks, namaste, (A Creative Harbor)

    ps ~ am your latest follower ~

  3. If you use the word 'just' to imply 'lacking' well you need to remove that just. You are not 'just' anything. If you use the work 'just' to explain that THIS IS ME! then that Just is pefect. You are a corageous woman who is taking on the challenges life has given you and you are doing a splendid job. Yep, definitely, there nothing 'just' about you except that you are just perfect the way you are!

  4. Definitely better than the nick I used to have for a while... nobody. Glad you are feeling better. :)

  5. The previous commenters have said it all and most likely in much better words than I could.
    Keep it up and think of your screen name as a reminder of old times that you have developed from.
    Claudia (ImagesByCW)

  6. I like your screen name. What it said to me was that you are just me and just me is plenty good!