Welcome to My Bumpy Ride.......

Before you all read on, I guess it is best to introduce myself to you and let you know a bit about myself. I am Susan, and first and foremost, I am a mother to a wonderful young man. Though he is grown, he will always be that three year old little boy, that asked all those questions and expected answers to them all. Though I will tell you much about myself in this blog there is no one or nothing that is as important to me as him, even if I don't discuss him much, because he kina likes to remain private.

For years I was actively trying to find myself, but that was a big waste of time, since by doing so I was not living. All my life I have always known that I was "different", but was unable to know why that was. I first thought that perhaps it was because I was adopted, but that was not the case. Turns out, I am bipolar and pretty much have been all my life. This was explained to me about nine years ago when I had a major melt down. I tend to be more on the depressive side, but have on occasion been quite manic. My last episode was early thru mid 2008, with full blown depression. For five months, I bearly left my house, let alone my bed. Why am I telling you this? I just want it out in the open and let you understand that I discuss my illness from time to time.

Present day, I am currently a full time student, studying social work. At the end of 2011 I was approached by a mentor of mine, who mentioned a new program that was going to launch here in Rhode Island. This new program called the Peer Wellness Coaching, was something that I had always wished would become a reality and to add even more excitement was the fact that this mentor was inviting me to train for a position as one of the Peer Wellness Coaches.

So currently (spring 2012) I am part of the three phases of training and should be employed by the fall of 2012. What is even more excellent about this program is that they are aware of my education goals and are willing to work with me on maintaining those goals.

Also you might hear me mention NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness), because I am actively involved with them. I am a facilitator and state trainer for the NAMI Connection groups (peer run support group) here in Rhode Island, and I also help teach high school and college students about mental illness through NAMI RI's Inside Mental Illness program.

So with all that being said...I hope you read on to my daily activities and thoughts and such.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Saturday Centus – One Loss Leads to Others

The prompt this week is:  "PLEASE REMIT YOUR PAYMENT PROMPTLY!'
Number of words: 100 words PLUS the five words of the prompt. 
105 maximum word total.
Style of writing: Any
Pictures: Any 
So here goes…

She sat out the window, watching her small children playing in the backyard.  Looking down she saw the words leap out of the paper, “PLEASE REMIT YOUR PAYMENT PROMPTLY!”

Tears began to fall as she again watched out the window.  The death of her husband and the loss of his income was now the loss of her children’s security of knowing they had a home.  She wondered why they never got around to buying the life insurance.

In slow motion, she brought her laptop closer and typed in, “apartments Edison NJ.” Her only hope was that her own income could provide enough money for rent.


  1. Susan, this is so sad! But it happens all the time these days. My first husband, now deceased, had no life insurance, and his wife is really struggling to make ends meet. I feel sorry for her, but I'm glad I wasn't married to him when he died. I would be really pissed!!

  2. Susan, I'm almost in tears. Very well written. I could feel the defeat in the pit of my stomach. I'm afraid this happens often. laurie @ Battling My Inner Critic

  3. well written; you convey the sadness of the death and the grief compounded by the lack of funds. there's a poignancy in the piece. nicely done.

  4. Oh my.

    Oh my.

    Having lost my house earlier in the year, I can honestly say this is an incredibly horrible feeling.

    To lose it because I lost a loved one is unfathomable to me.

    Beautifully written.

    Incredibly moving.