Welcome to My Bumpy Ride.......

Before you all read on, I guess it is best to introduce myself to you and let you know a bit about myself. I am Susan, and first and foremost, I am a mother to a wonderful young man. Though he is grown, he will always be that three year old little boy, that asked all those questions and expected answers to them all. Though I will tell you much about myself in this blog there is no one or nothing that is as important to me as him, even if I don't discuss him much, because he kina likes to remain private.

For years I was actively trying to find myself, but that was a big waste of time, since by doing so I was not living. All my life I have always known that I was "different", but was unable to know why that was. I first thought that perhaps it was because I was adopted, but that was not the case. Turns out, I am bipolar and pretty much have been all my life. This was explained to me about nine years ago when I had a major melt down. I tend to be more on the depressive side, but have on occasion been quite manic. My last episode was early thru mid 2008, with full blown depression. For five months, I bearly left my house, let alone my bed. Why am I telling you this? I just want it out in the open and let you understand that I discuss my illness from time to time.

Present day, I am currently a full time student, studying social work. At the end of 2011 I was approached by a mentor of mine, who mentioned a new program that was going to launch here in Rhode Island. This new program called the Peer Wellness Coaching, was something that I had always wished would become a reality and to add even more excitement was the fact that this mentor was inviting me to train for a position as one of the Peer Wellness Coaches.

So currently (spring 2012) I am part of the three phases of training and should be employed by the fall of 2012. What is even more excellent about this program is that they are aware of my education goals and are willing to work with me on maintaining those goals.

Also you might hear me mention NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness), because I am actively involved with them. I am a facilitator and state trainer for the NAMI Connection groups (peer run support group) here in Rhode Island, and I also help teach high school and college students about mental illness through NAMI RI's Inside Mental Illness program.

So with all that being said...I hope you read on to my daily activities and thoughts and such.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Entry for November 3, 2010 All in All a Pretty Ok Day

Hey all!  Had a pretty good day today.  Was kind of tired but all in all it was a non-eventful day, which can sometimes be a really good thing.  I am having major problems following my Psychology Professor because he moves around the room so much and I lose so much information because of my stupid ears.  I really have to go and get my hearing aids adjusted; it has after all been a few years.  I do have my digital voice recorder and that seems to help a bit.  Good thing though that most of what he goes over is in the book and he does give out a study guide for the exams and tells us where to look for the quizzes, so mostly I am ok.  I do have an A in the class so I must be getting it, just feel like I am missing out and feel like there is no real reason for me to be getting up at four in the morning for a class that I don’t feel like I am participating in.
Had Math as well today and took an exam.  I feel like I did an ok job on that exam but watch, I messed it up or something.  Here is another class that I feel like I am missing out with, because the Professor is always talking to the chalk board and I miss so much.  Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays it is so hard for me to attend those classes because I think, what is the point?  Everything I have learnt seems to come from the books and I don’t feel like I am being instructed.  Maybe I am expecting too much.  Maybe that is the way it really is and we really just have to read the books and that is all the information we need.  Well at least it seems that way with those two classes.
Tuesday’s and Thursdays I have Western Civ and English Writing, now both of those I feel as those I am part of the class.  My Western Civ Professor keeps us engaged and speaks very clearly and I have no issue with hearing him, and he doesn’t seem annoyed at all when I ask him to repeat what he said if I miss it.  My English instructor is big on us working in groups and figuring out how to work certain problems.  At first I was not thrilled with his type of teaching, but it is kind of growing on me, and in fact, next semester I am taking him for the next step in English.

The school hooked me up with a special kind of textbook for both Western Civ and Psychology that will read aloud for me as I follow along in the text on the puter.  Usually it is used for people with reading problems or blindness, for me though I use it so I can learn how to pronounce words and associate them better to memorize their spelling, since I don’t have phonics skills and every word I know how to spell is from memory.  That was way nice of them to do that for me and has helped a great deal.  When I was a kid I was one of the first kids to get a tape recorder because I needed it for exactly the reason that this program they set me up with is being used.  So that is why today’s picture is a old 1970’s cassette player.  How many of you all remember those. 
Ok so that is all for today so you all have a good one.  TTFN

1 comment:

  1. That is great that the school is so helpful. When I was in college I didn't ask for any help for managing courses while being bipolar. I wish i had.