Sometimes I just wish I could cry and let all this shit out. I just spent the better part of an hour trying to get myself to do so. I figured it out; it has been well over two years since I last let out the tears. Part of me is way afraid to let them run, because once they start, will I be able to stop them and will the tears make me so uncontrollable that I will totally lose it? I have come to terms with the fact that I might never ever be able to do it again. Even in pain, I have no liquid coming out of my eyes. Just figured that I would write this so I can document it and see how much longer this is going to be. Oh fuck it; I am done even thinking about it for now.
Exam tomorrow. Worked the study sheet and feel ok about the exam for now anyways. Have to work on other study sheet, but I am done for now.
Never met with Denny’s therapist, because the program messed up his discharge day. You all know how it is, it is all about insurance. Well that is all for now. Just waiting for sleep to come on to me.