Spent the last five days inpatient in a hospital this time and can’t say I am fixed or it was a waste of time, but I can say at least at this moment I can have a bit of concentration, but definitely typing quite slow and many mistakes so far. This is just something to note for the doctor on Tuesday when I go to the Partial Hospital thingy.
Something I feel really bad about is the fact that I lied to my parents about where I have been. I made up stories about places that I was going to that was keeping me from being able to call them. Dad won’t even question anything and honestly I don’t feel that bad about him, because his memory is slowing down a bit right now so he might not even notice the gaps in me calling him. Mom on the other hand is quite alert and she might catch on. So you might be wondering why is that I kept this from them, well there are two reasons really. The first and most important is the fact that at this stage in their life it is not something they need to worry about, that is of course if they do in the first place. Seriously, sometimes I just think that they pretend to care about the happenings in my life. Second reason is important to me because of the fact that I really don’t want to have to explain to them that I have lots of intrusive thoughts and I don’t want to have to explain the process in which my mind is going. The guilt of my lying is a lot lower then dealing with explaining shit to them.
Well the hospital Doctor didn’t like the choice of med that the crisis place gave me and he prescribed Geodon. I am deliberately trying to not to look at side effects but kind of took a quick look today because of a faint feeling that I had. That feeling could have been from the sun, but who knows. I going to try and stick with the meds for now and try to be on time with them.
There is going to be a Waterfire here in Providence tomorrow and Denny and I are going to go to it and have dinner. It will be the first time we dine out since his alcohol drink, and I am a bit nervous but going out is going to be a bit of a celebration of his recovery. I am wondering if I can find some kind of card or something to get for him for his first month. He forgot to get his chip today but he will remember for his next meeting.
Since I will be trying so night features on my camera at the Waterfire, I figured that I would share with you I shot I took before so you can see how bad I am at taking night shots…
In case you want to know about Waterfire