Well yesterday and today, I forced myself to get up and go out. It is nice out after all. It doesn’t matter whether or not there is a thunderstorm going on in my mind, there is still life outside of it. I am hoping that if I get up and out, that somehow the nice days outside will help clear the dark clouds within my mind.
So yesterday, Denny and I went to Federal Hill, here in Providence, and ate dinner and then walked to the mall to see a movie. We saw limitless and The Adjustment Bureau. I remember some of the movies and I guess they were ok. I think I would become addicted to the pill in limitless. I could really see that happening. That is all I can say on that one, because I don’t want to spoil the movie for anyone else.
Last week I was kind of ahead in school and this weekend I did nothing for school. It is not the smartest thing to do at this time, but honestly I could not see myself getting anything done anyways. Each time I am here, I look at my bed and long for it.
My grades as of now are passing, which is good, but usually at this time I am doing so much better. I picked my classes for fall already. Biology for Today, Physical Science and Intro to Human Services/Welfare are the courses I have picked and with each being 4 credits, it fulfills my fulltime requirement.
If by the first week in September I am not feeling any better, I am going to take a break for that semester. I think what is scaring me the most is the lack of structure for the summer. Believe it or not, that is so mega bad for me. I have to figure out how I am going to fill the spaces that school fills for me right now, before it seriously becomes an issue.
Because of my illness, I was unable to get my photo collection together for the art gallery that wanted to me to exhibit at. This is something that this past fall I was so looking forward to. This illness of mine is a killer of many things. Maybe next year I will be healthy enough to get into gear and get my photos ready. I decided that each time I post here, I will insert one of my photos, and maybe that will get me more into the swing with my photos. So here is something I took today.
This attracted me because of how not straight and normal this clock is. This photo reminds me of me and how I am. I am not someone who fits evenly into the box that the rest of society fits into. When I am in that box, it tilts to the side and does not even out until I jump back out again. TTFN